Feelin a little bummed

I know - I haven't posted anything in a while. It seems that the status of my shoulder healing dominates my thoughts and my posts, and I figure that isn't all that interesting to anyone. But that's what is on my mind so you might as well hear about it anyway. I've had my good days and my not so good days. I wish I could report that I feel as good as new, but I still don't. I realize that I may not ever feel the same as I did before. But it is still the goal. I've had some days with some unexpected increase in the pain and swelling around the ol' collarbone. My Physical Therapist convinced me finally to see the Dr about it and he did xray it again and assure me that all is well with the healing process and the hardware. Further discussions with my therapist brought us both to the thinking that I have some adhesions that are pulling and causing the pain. Massaging the scar and the area around it is supposed to loosen that up. I sure hope so. There is also the possibility of irritation from the hardware. Time will tell on that one, and if it really does continue to be a problem more surgery would be needed. If I sound a little discouraged, it could be so. My Dr informed me that he is leaving for a new position in West Virginia, and so I will have to follow up with someone new in the future. I have one more appointment with him before he leaves, and it's likely that I'll be cut loose at that point anyway, but still I feel distressed. Then today, my therapist told me she is moving to the Bartlett office and so I'll have to switch to a different therapist! I feel insecure about the annoying pains that continue - however normal they may be - and I feel like my support system is dissolving. I'll get back to you once I perk up a bit....